SOUL FOR RENT

I got a wonderful e-mail the other day from a new reader named Linda and we had a very insightful exchange of emails about my non-birthday post.

I may end up sticking them in to the comments. The crux of the emails thus far was that in general, as I tried to state in the post-birthday post, people generally base everything on the exterior- especially if they are in the industry or even just regular gay guys.

Instead of re-writing what I have already I will ask if I can post her response to me response back to her...that is a hell of a sentence...in another post this week.

Long story short- there is a big double standard and as she pointed out it affects females in the straight community as well as us gay folk.

So what else am I going to write?

Well it's something I should have wrote a long time ago and today I am gonna tell you what it is.


There are two things that I love- writing and music. For a while now I have had two fictional story ideas in my head. One involves the gay porn industry and one involves a throw away kid- that one is based on the real website of a real Australian boy that I found way back in 2000.

But I think I am going to start with the first story first- in the email Linda mentions that she also writes adult fiction and that my mail response has inspired her to write a story of her own.

Her email inspired me to actually start writing the story that I have titled "Soul For Rent" so I can get the idea out of my head.

I don't want to give too much away but I will state for the record that the idea, the stories and the plot are not connected with anyone I deal with that is currently in the industry or retired.

Of course every fiction author uses life experiences in their own work so the lead character may resemble people you know but I really don't have one person in mind- maybe it will be a mixture of a bunch of people I have encountered in my life time but not any person in particular.

The storyline does not really come from any particular person's life. In fact it actually comes from music and one song...that I have posted down below.

The song is by a band called Marillion and the title is "Incubus"

For many years I have loved this song and the story that is told within it.

Incubus defined is, "A nightmare, anything that weighs heavily on the mind. In medieval times it denoted an evil demon who was supposed to have sexual intercourse with women during their sleep."

In the case of the song it refers to a celebrity- someone in the spotlight who feeds off someone that helped get them to the top...and then eventually when it suits them wipes the person from their memory "like a greasepaint mask".

But in the end the person that allowed the other to get all the fame and attention gets the last laugh as the person's star starts to fade.

It is a brilliantly written song and is the primary inspiration for the story I am going to write. In the case of the song it is a heterosexual relationship- in my story it will be gay themed since that is my frame of reference.

The song lives on the album FUGAZI (basically that means fucked up") according to FISH, aka, Derrick Dick the lead singer on this album.

Not only did Incubus inspire the story I have in my head but a number of other songs like Emerald Lies, Assassing, She Chameleon and Fugazi to name a few also gave me the working idea for the story I am going to write.

The song Jigsaw is also a big inspiration for the story and its central plot. The song's meaning is described as such:

"When you watch kids doing jigsaws, they'll always take the eye of the koala bear or whatever and sit on it, just for the dominating factor of putting the last bit in. You get to the point where you lie about the last piece, you deny that you've got it.

The other person is aware that you're lying and they hold back four or five pieces so that you can't put in the last piece. Eventually you tear up the jigsaw and say ' We'll do it another day'. That can grow into relationships - where no matter how important that piece is to the other person or the relationship. In general, the song is about the relationship that splits up and forever comes together again. It gets worse because each time it comes back together, more pieces of the jigsaw have got lost, and you can't get them back."

Their album Childhood's End also contributed to the genesis of the idea now in my head and ready to be written for you.

Why all this explanation beforehand?

Well I know how people like to personalize things- I can see the hate mail now from various past and present performers accusing me about writing about them.

Call this post my disclaimer in advance if you like- and so you have it.

I am not sure where I am going to post it. A reader on the other blog suggested something called Nifty Archive which I need to check out...I will let you know here on this blog when and where the first chapters are posted.

Here is the song INCUBUS...you can right click here if you want to read along with the lyrics.




Here is the song JIGSAW...you can right click here if you want to read along with the lyrics.